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[cryovision]

[I will put an actual voicemail here later and make it look cute rn just assume he has a very polite message!]

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Re: late day 41/early day 42

[cryovision]

You haven't.

[nnnngh just. takes Diluc's face in his hands and kisses his forehead]

You've been nothing but kind and considerate. I promise.

Re: late day 41/early day 42

[pyrodelusion]

[sighs softly and nuzzles into his hands.]

Then... what's bothering you?

Re: late day 41/early day 42

[cryovision]

[who let you be so cute UGH]

Hmm... It's really nothing to worry about. I'm the same as always.

[aka chasing himself in circles in his head feeling like he deserves nothing but that's his normal so he's fine???]

Re: late day 41/early day 42

[pyrodelusion]

[folding a hand over one of Kaeya's]

Part of this is worrying about you, you know?

Re: late day 41/early day 42

[cryovision]

...I honestly wish you wouldn't.

Re: late day 41/early day 42

[pyrodelusion]

...I don't know that I can stop.

Re: late day 41/early day 42

[cryovision]

[His tension increases so much there that Noctua must be able to feel it as Pavo winds up tight like a spring. But then it all just... stops. He goes a little slack, and leans back to stare, lazily, at the ceiling.]

Of course.

Re: late day 41/early day 42

[pyrodelusion]

...I am hurting you.

Re: late day 41/early day 42

[cryovision]

You're not.

Re: late day 41/early day 42

[pyrodelusion]

You just... I clearly did?

Re: late day 41/early day 42

[cryovision]

You didn't. I do it to myself.

Re: late day 41/early day 42

[pyrodelusion]

Explain...?

Re: late day 41/early day 42

[cryovision]

[he doesn't wannaaaaaaaa]

Noctua... You know I'm not good at this.

Re: late day 41/early day 42

[pyrodelusion]

I know, but... I can't leave well enough alone. Not when it's you.

Re: late day 41/early day 42

[cryovision]

[but the more concern noctua shows the more tempted pavo is to run for the hills...!]

...It's just... I keep thinking we shouldn't have made up at all. I'm not-- ...There's nothing in this for you.

Re: late day 41/early day 42

[pyrodelusion]

...That's wrong, though?

Re: late day 41/early day 42

[cryovision]

It isn't. If you think I'm not a danger to you and everything you stand for, you're deluding yourself. If even a fatui harbinger is better to you than I can be, I can't help but think you're just not letting go of the lies from when we were kids.

Re: late day 41/early day 42

[pyrodelusion]

What the-

I know you're dangerous! That's part of why I'm keeping you close, along with loving you!

What the hell do you mean, he's better to me?!

Re: late day 41/early day 42

[cryovision]

He wants us not to hate eachother, for your sake. But that only made me hate him more, so clearly he's got a better handle on his ugliness than I do. And I hope you realise how self-destructive you sound.

Re: late day 41/early day 42

[pyrodelusion]

He said it wasn't because of me.

[what if ignoring the self destructive]

...Look, I fuck him from time to time, but that hardly compares to my relationship with you.

Re: late day 41/early day 42

[cryovision]

Yes, fine. I don't care who you fuck or how close to them you are. That's for you to choose on your own. My point is that I am not worth all this trouble, and there's no chance it'll end well, so I won't be able to relax and you won't be able to stop worrying and it is, in general, a doomed venture no matter how much we pretend we're fine.

Re: late day 41/early day 42

[pyrodelusion]

[sets his jaw.]

You are too worth it. If the reason you can't relax is because you can't see this ending well... I can temper my worrying. I can enjoy having you in the moment, so please...

Notifs why

[cryovision]

[Oh no Diluc's making the stubborn face...]

Don't beg. You're better than that. ...And I'm not breaking up with you. I'm just trying to explain like you asked me to.

I would like to note i didn't get a notif for this

[pyrodelusion]

...I just don't want to let you go. It feels like, if I did... I'd never see you again.

😣

[cryovision]

I've never been the one who leaves, Noctua.

[It's impossible to completely hide the bitterness in that tone but he tries, all while petting Noctua soothingly.]

No matter what, I'll be right where I should be until the day it's all over. There's nothing you can do to change that.

[His tone is reassuring, mostly. But he knows what he's actually saying is not. He won't run, because he has a purpose. He won't disappear, because Noctua's the one he still expects to end him.]