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[cryovision]

[I will put an actual voicemail here later and make it look cute rn just assume he has a very polite message!]

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Re: late day 41/early day 42

[pyrodelusion]

...I am hurting you.

Re: late day 41/early day 42

[cryovision]

You're not.

Re: late day 41/early day 42

[pyrodelusion]

You just... I clearly did?

Re: late day 41/early day 42

[cryovision]

You didn't. I do it to myself.

Re: late day 41/early day 42

[pyrodelusion]

Explain...?

Re: late day 41/early day 42

[cryovision]

[he doesn't wannaaaaaaaa]

Noctua... You know I'm not good at this.

Re: late day 41/early day 42

[pyrodelusion]

I know, but... I can't leave well enough alone. Not when it's you.

Re: late day 41/early day 42

[cryovision]

[but the more concern noctua shows the more tempted pavo is to run for the hills...!]

...It's just... I keep thinking we shouldn't have made up at all. I'm not-- ...There's nothing in this for you.

Re: late day 41/early day 42

[pyrodelusion]

...That's wrong, though?

Re: late day 41/early day 42

[cryovision]

It isn't. If you think I'm not a danger to you and everything you stand for, you're deluding yourself. If even a fatui harbinger is better to you than I can be, I can't help but think you're just not letting go of the lies from when we were kids.

Re: late day 41/early day 42

[pyrodelusion]

What the-

I know you're dangerous! That's part of why I'm keeping you close, along with loving you!

What the hell do you mean, he's better to me?!

Re: late day 41/early day 42

[cryovision]

He wants us not to hate eachother, for your sake. But that only made me hate him more, so clearly he's got a better handle on his ugliness than I do. And I hope you realise how self-destructive you sound.

Re: late day 41/early day 42

[pyrodelusion]

He said it wasn't because of me.

[what if ignoring the self destructive]

...Look, I fuck him from time to time, but that hardly compares to my relationship with you.

Re: late day 41/early day 42

[cryovision]

Yes, fine. I don't care who you fuck or how close to them you are. That's for you to choose on your own. My point is that I am not worth all this trouble, and there's no chance it'll end well, so I won't be able to relax and you won't be able to stop worrying and it is, in general, a doomed venture no matter how much we pretend we're fine.

Re: late day 41/early day 42

[pyrodelusion]

[sets his jaw.]

You are too worth it. If the reason you can't relax is because you can't see this ending well... I can temper my worrying. I can enjoy having you in the moment, so please...

Notifs why

[cryovision]

[Oh no Diluc's making the stubborn face...]

Don't beg. You're better than that. ...And I'm not breaking up with you. I'm just trying to explain like you asked me to.

I would like to note i didn't get a notif for this

[pyrodelusion]

...I just don't want to let you go. It feels like, if I did... I'd never see you again.

😣

[cryovision]

I've never been the one who leaves, Noctua.

[It's impossible to completely hide the bitterness in that tone but he tries, all while petting Noctua soothingly.]

No matter what, I'll be right where I should be until the day it's all over. There's nothing you can do to change that.

[His tone is reassuring, mostly. But he knows what he's actually saying is not. He won't run, because he has a purpose. He won't disappear, because Noctua's the one he still expects to end him.]

[pyrodelusion]

[he flinches. he can't help it. pavo is right, after all.

...he just quietly tucks himself firmer against Pavo, fully atop him and accepting the soothing pets.]

[cryovision]

You know...

[He's running his fingers through Noctua's hair affectionately, but his voice is rather distant.]

If all you want is time, I'll give you as much as you ask. But... I hope you understand it'll only make it harder on us in the end. Still, I seem to have made a mess of all my plans lately, between you and Zephyr and that harbinger.

[pyrodelusion]

I know that.

...Zephyr and Cheri too?

[tipping his head to get a look at his face]

[cryovision]

Creating extra animosity with the Fatui can only cause trouble, if we all remember this later. ...If he's even the same him that we know, given it seems we're dealing with multiple realities. As for Zephyr...

[just. kinda sighs.]

Feeling anything but suspicion and resentment towards one of the Seven is going to be a painful knot to unravel. Someone like me shouldn't let myself care for someone like him.

[pyrodelusion]

...But you already do.

[cryovision]

I do. He's... been kind.